Omg,after getting home after watching Meet Dave with my sister,aunt&cousin, Tharen called & told me he had a photoshoot tomorrow with Lime Magazine.What im screaming about is that he will be bearing his TUMMY for the photoshoot & it seems its gonna be on the front cover of Lime Magazine.Omg,that tummy's mine!Some boyfriend i have,he got into Lime Magazine before i did!boohoo.So if you see a lunatic bearing his tummy with a red question mark on it with psycho curly hair on the front cover of Lime Magazine next month,you'd realise my taste in guys are beyond normality.
Anyways,ive been working so hard for my o's cos when i look at it,i barely get an l1r4 of 20,which is bad cos MI takes in an L1R4 of 20 and less.What Tharen said is true though,you only get back how much you put in.I didnt put in a 100% for most of my class tests,common tests & MYEs.So i'll be putting in a lot of effort & now that Tharen is amazing in maths(miracle right?hah,well he worked hard)he can help me with my comb.science&maths & although i may seem very petty about my comb.humans cos i think im good at it,i'd still push aside my snobiness for that subject & get more help from him.With him i wont feel degraded asking him for help.Vimi's still the best maths teacher.
Oh do you wanna know whats just sad?i lost 7 kg,good news?NO!cos its not even showing!i weighed myself & realised i actually lost 7kg!but theres just no difference in appearance!wtf.
Lately,ive been having weird dreams.I remember hearing that these kind of dreams are usually mutual which is weird(they're not wet dreams btw you sick heads)I was having a fight with this girl i dont even know & he pulled me away from her to comfort me.Another one was when everyone blamed me for something i didnt do so i ran & bumped into him&he hugged me&said he wont let go of me till im better&will always be there.Its strange,& i'm not gonna go into detail or mention who or what just if anyone who can do dream interpretations,tell me wtf is going on cos i have no idea on whats happening.When i saw the 2 of them the next day,i had awkward stares.I dont know if its just me being paranoid & over reacting or if it was really mutual.If only i was a skeptical person,i wouldnt be thinking too much about this but sometimes when i think of it i feel happy.Shoot me damnit.
My mom's coming to Singapore from England tomorrow & i have no clue on what i'm about to face.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
Cos i'm emo
Tharen told me about this video which this emo girl posted on youtube.Initially,she posted it under her account & i think she got embarassed & deleted her account but someone else managed to get hold of the video & uploaded it into their youtube account to make fun of her.Just watch it!its fucking funny how she tries to promote emos & how emos spread the love,hahahaha.&she is pretty though & would look so much better in normal shades.
& she doesnt talk like an emo,it sounds more bimbotic-im-way-better-than-you-are.Just look at the way she snaps & bobs her head like how bimbos do.Oh & she kinda looks like Jamie-Lynn Spears.The last part where she cries & signs off as "princess punk out" was freakin hilarious.
I'm not trashing emo kids,but i remember in england emo kids are seen as weaklings & you get beaten up for being an emo & you get isolated & bullied.We've not seen this in Singapore have we?A lot of people i see at gigs & all find it cool to be emo & to dress emo & although we do make fun of them,people think its cool to be emo,wtf right?cos the emo people here regard themselves as cool(whatever)& in England,its a totally different story.Being an emo there is a big risk & you get treated like pariahs & that really makes me wonder why do they even do that when they're getting beaten up.I will laugh if its because they feel that they're "standing up for what they believe in".Oh so 3 people in their lives have passed on,you can ask anyone who has known me for a long time that that ive had more shit in my life than most teens & i'm not gonna go ranting about it here,in fact i dont even rant about it at all.Life is like that & you have to get on cos shit happens,now thats what "standing up for what you believe in" is called,not going on a slitting wrists strike & whining like a bitch in one corner.& with all that shit thats happened to me,im still normal & i still get on no matter how hard it is.I dont go "okay my life sucks so im not gonna wear any other colour except red and black".That girl in the video just contradicted herself & embarassed herself on the whole.
& that reminds of "The Emo Song" by Set For Glory which is one of the first local bands i got to know 3 years ago,but they already broke up sadly.Heres the lyrics!& listen to it here http://www.myspace.com/setforglory the songs in the playbox!
I like to watch animal planet
&watch the animals mate
it turns me on,it turns me on
i like to watch discovery channel
& watch the jellyfish mate
it turns me on,it turns me on
Cos i'm emo
i like to wear girls pants
i like to sit at home&cry
i like to sit at home & cry
cos i'm emo
i like to wear make up
i like to sit at home&cry
i like to sit at home&cry
cos i'm emo
i like to make out with guys
i like to sit at home&cry
i like to sit at home&cry
but i know i'm not cool
but i have Myspace,be my friend
i have tons of pictures,of my pretty hair
come on,come on
be my friend
I'm sure Kav&Nat will remember this.
Anyways,i think i aced my O levels Oral considering the fact that there were no prompts,just smiles.(:yay.
My birthday was pretty okay this year since i was in a happy mood all the way.Tharen wished me exactly at 12am and i met Tharen in the morning of my birthday & he squeezed me so tightly,lol & when i came home i found a bag full of stuff from pizza hut which my other granny sent over so we stuffed ourselves with that & the stuff my gran cooked & for dinner we had KFC so you can imagine the condition my tummy was in.My dad got me an MP3(:,my sis got me a piggy bank cos i didnt want her to buy anything which costs more than dad,my aunt&cousin got me a teddy & stuff from The Body Shop.Kaye got me the "Invent Your Scent" collection from The Body Shop & friendship keychains which i gave half of it to her cos shes my bff(: & Feli&Vimi got me this whole set of super cute angel figurines & Feli bought it cos it the angels reminded her of Tharen cos of his curly haird,My stepgrandparents in England got me bangles from my beloved Claire's accessories which is the store i miss the most in England.& on top of that ive the lovely dress kav got me & the revlon eye shimmer.(:
Kaye(her birthday was the next day) liked the gifts i got her,yay(:
I cant wait for Tharen's 18th,muhahahaha.
I have spread the Gossip Girl disease to Kaye.Vimi,Feli,Kaye&i will be watching the whole series together.
*gets into the deep gossip girl voice that sounds like she has something stuffed her you know what*
XOXO
You know you love me,
Gossip Girl
we kept faking that,hahaha.& Chace Crawford is our man though Vimi said he's gay.
& she doesnt talk like an emo,it sounds more bimbotic-im-way-better-than-you-are.Just look at the way she snaps & bobs her head like how bimbos do.Oh & she kinda looks like Jamie-Lynn Spears.The last part where she cries & signs off as "princess punk out" was freakin hilarious.
I'm not trashing emo kids,but i remember in england emo kids are seen as weaklings & you get beaten up for being an emo & you get isolated & bullied.We've not seen this in Singapore have we?A lot of people i see at gigs & all find it cool to be emo & to dress emo & although we do make fun of them,people think its cool to be emo,wtf right?cos the emo people here regard themselves as cool(whatever)& in England,its a totally different story.Being an emo there is a big risk & you get treated like pariahs & that really makes me wonder why do they even do that when they're getting beaten up.I will laugh if its because they feel that they're "standing up for what they believe in".Oh so 3 people in their lives have passed on,you can ask anyone who has known me for a long time that that ive had more shit in my life than most teens & i'm not gonna go ranting about it here,in fact i dont even rant about it at all.Life is like that & you have to get on cos shit happens,now thats what "standing up for what you believe in" is called,not going on a slitting wrists strike & whining like a bitch in one corner.& with all that shit thats happened to me,im still normal & i still get on no matter how hard it is.I dont go "okay my life sucks so im not gonna wear any other colour except red and black".That girl in the video just contradicted herself & embarassed herself on the whole.
& that reminds of "The Emo Song" by Set For Glory which is one of the first local bands i got to know 3 years ago,but they already broke up sadly.Heres the lyrics!& listen to it here http://www.myspace.com/setforglory the songs in the playbox!
I like to watch animal planet
&watch the animals mate
it turns me on,it turns me on
i like to watch discovery channel
& watch the jellyfish mate
it turns me on,it turns me on
Cos i'm emo
i like to wear girls pants
i like to sit at home&cry
i like to sit at home & cry
cos i'm emo
i like to wear make up
i like to sit at home&cry
i like to sit at home&cry
cos i'm emo
i like to make out with guys
i like to sit at home&cry
i like to sit at home&cry
but i know i'm not cool
but i have Myspace,be my friend
i have tons of pictures,of my pretty hair
come on,come on
be my friend
I'm sure Kav&Nat will remember this.
Anyways,i think i aced my O levels Oral considering the fact that there were no prompts,just smiles.(:yay.
My birthday was pretty okay this year since i was in a happy mood all the way.Tharen wished me exactly at 12am and i met Tharen in the morning of my birthday & he squeezed me so tightly,lol & when i came home i found a bag full of stuff from pizza hut which my other granny sent over so we stuffed ourselves with that & the stuff my gran cooked & for dinner we had KFC so you can imagine the condition my tummy was in.My dad got me an MP3(:,my sis got me a piggy bank cos i didnt want her to buy anything which costs more than dad,my aunt&cousin got me a teddy & stuff from The Body Shop.Kaye got me the "Invent Your Scent" collection from The Body Shop & friendship keychains which i gave half of it to her cos shes my bff(: & Feli&Vimi got me this whole set of super cute angel figurines & Feli bought it cos it the angels reminded her of Tharen cos of his curly haird,My stepgrandparents in England got me bangles from my beloved Claire's accessories which is the store i miss the most in England.& on top of that ive the lovely dress kav got me & the revlon eye shimmer.(:
Kaye(her birthday was the next day) liked the gifts i got her,yay(:
I cant wait for Tharen's 18th,muhahahaha.
I have spread the Gossip Girl disease to Kaye.Vimi,Feli,Kaye&i will be watching the whole series together.
*gets into the deep gossip girl voice that sounds like she has something stuffed her you know what*
XOXO
You know you love me,
Gossip Girl
we kept faking that,hahaha.& Chace Crawford is our man though Vimi said he's gay.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Lady red visited me on National Day!
Coincidental isnt it?
Tomorrow's my birthday!and the day after is Kaye's!coincidental isnt a word for that,its our fate to be soulmates(:aww.Hey our names are more or less the same!Catherine and Kathyreen!
Anyways,i know ive been MIA for awhile from blogging.Busy busy busy busy me.No not drowning myself in a "fabulous" lifestyle.The O levels has cast a shadow over my lifestyle but im sure it'll be worth it.
From today theres only 71 more days to the first day of my O levels so right now my schedule is all about mugging.
Yesterday was 080808,which happens to be a really special day to Tharen and me and its not because of the dumb ass Connect Singapore but its 08!our anniversary and this date is only like once in a lifetime for us unless we're healthy enough to live till 2100 so that we'll get to celebrate 080808 again.We celebrated over vegetarian burgers and a spring roll from Ling Tze restaurant in Velocity and we'll be going there for lunch on Monday for my birthday!Haha he hugged me till my ribcage area hurt like hell.We missed each other too much.He told me some friend of mine who was envious of how our relationship lasted for so long and still going strong that he was only with me out of pity and that he liked some other girl.That explains how he randomly calls when he misses me and randomly wants me to come over.Its kinda weird that i dont feel angry or even upset since its from someone i regard as a friend but then i remembered how Tharen clearly stated who he could swear would be my true friends who will stick by me for life and they're the people i would never shed a tear over cos they wont let me do so.Well Tharen your gonna kill me for saying this but even if he leaves i can take 2 steps forward too right?its not like my rights to cheat are withdrawn right?but i wont.I cant bear to do that to that curly haired weirdo.There can only be one Tharanna(:
Oh yes.Ive got neeeeews baby!!!MY BOYFRIEND THARENII MUNIANDY WILL BE PERFORMING AT LIME SONIC BANG'08!!!yeap with Thambi-K Seaow(:so we'll be all brain storming for new funny concepts and introductions for them.Sorry to disappoint but he wont be doing his Bhangra dancing for Lime Sonic Bang,he'll be playing the guitar and he doesnt have time to master bhangra dancing and playing the guitar at the same time.So be there!cos he just might do the bhangra dance.I'm glad that even if Withered Tree isnt performing,at least Tharen and Shyam Raj are performing and i didnt vote for their bands at SOFT cos im biased,but i voted cos they're 2 of the best damn things in the local music scene in Singapore.Go search for Thambi-K Seaow on youtube and im sure you'd come for their performance at Lime Sonic Bang'08!
Truth Be Known's album is out and Tharen will be having an interview with them soon for the Local Scene Alive blog and im really sorry to those who have been awaiting for the next feature after the Meza Virs feature but my dear partner Tharen was elongating it for far too long.He's gonna do it for sure now so really sorry to the readers.Local Scene Alive's blog will come back to life really soon.
I cant wait for the o's to be over.Ive got so many things planned!too many highlights to be even called highlights.One im itching to execute is the gig Tharen and i are organising!and you should be itching to go for it!seriously!and the money wont go into our pockets as much as we like it to be but it'll be going to one or two charity organisations.Its a mulit-genre gig and we need suggestions for the name,so feel free to suggest!
Tharen's gonna let me borrow his preeeecious(does the Lord Of The Rings voice) IPOD for a week or more(ill just give a pouty face)heheheheh!yeap his 3rd wife.yay yay yay!i HAVE NO IDEA WHERE MY MP3 PLAYER IS!!!mommy misses you!!!i'll be babysitting your cousin for a week!yay.
I have fallen in love with House Vs Hurricane!their songs are awesome!and the intro is perfect for a modern dance piece(though its metal).I also love H.I.M's Gone With The Sin,its such a tear jerker and even Tharen tears when he listens to it,it reminds him of me.(:I miss My American Heart,such cool asians and they replied to my message on Myspace!it was Jesse!wheehee.
Oh and Ling Tze is our official caterer for Tharen's and my wedding.It is awesome thats why.It'll make you want to be a vegetarian freak for life!
This is such a random long blog entry.Anyways,Nasir,Sathish,Tharen and i are movie buddies!
Kav's leaving for Arizona again on Monday and she'll be back in 2010.:(boohoo.I wish i had more time to spend with her but i couldnt because of the o's but im glad we managed to spend a whole night together(except that i was drunk) and i managed to meet her today though the whole meeting was in a car and she was driving and tharen,angeline and i were squeezed into the back!haha its so cool that she drives.She got me this PERFECT LBD(Little Black Dress)!Seriously!i totally forgot that i was fat after wearing it!i love you Kav!Its back to leaving comments on each other's friendsters and msn conversations for another 2 years.and im sure you'll become an awesome cosmo girl magazine editor after finishing your degree next year.I love you and ill really miss you(:
Tomorrow's my birthday!and the day after is Kaye's!coincidental isnt a word for that,its our fate to be soulmates(:aww.Hey our names are more or less the same!Catherine and Kathyreen!
Anyways,i know ive been MIA for awhile from blogging.Busy busy busy busy me.No not drowning myself in a "fabulous" lifestyle.The O levels has cast a shadow over my lifestyle but im sure it'll be worth it.
From today theres only 71 more days to the first day of my O levels so right now my schedule is all about mugging.
Yesterday was 080808,which happens to be a really special day to Tharen and me and its not because of the dumb ass Connect Singapore but its 08!our anniversary and this date is only like once in a lifetime for us unless we're healthy enough to live till 2100 so that we'll get to celebrate 080808 again.We celebrated over vegetarian burgers and a spring roll from Ling Tze restaurant in Velocity and we'll be going there for lunch on Monday for my birthday!Haha he hugged me till my ribcage area hurt like hell.We missed each other too much.He told me some friend of mine who was envious of how our relationship lasted for so long and still going strong that he was only with me out of pity and that he liked some other girl.That explains how he randomly calls when he misses me and randomly wants me to come over.Its kinda weird that i dont feel angry or even upset since its from someone i regard as a friend but then i remembered how Tharen clearly stated who he could swear would be my true friends who will stick by me for life and they're the people i would never shed a tear over cos they wont let me do so.Well Tharen your gonna kill me for saying this but even if he leaves i can take 2 steps forward too right?its not like my rights to cheat are withdrawn right?but i wont.I cant bear to do that to that curly haired weirdo.There can only be one Tharanna(:
Oh yes.Ive got neeeeews baby!!!MY BOYFRIEND THARENII MUNIANDY WILL BE PERFORMING AT LIME SONIC BANG'08!!!yeap with Thambi-K Seaow(:so we'll be all brain storming for new funny concepts and introductions for them.Sorry to disappoint but he wont be doing his Bhangra dancing for Lime Sonic Bang,he'll be playing the guitar and he doesnt have time to master bhangra dancing and playing the guitar at the same time.So be there!cos he just might do the bhangra dance.I'm glad that even if Withered Tree isnt performing,at least Tharen and Shyam Raj are performing and i didnt vote for their bands at SOFT cos im biased,but i voted cos they're 2 of the best damn things in the local music scene in Singapore.Go search for Thambi-K Seaow on youtube and im sure you'd come for their performance at Lime Sonic Bang'08!
Truth Be Known's album is out and Tharen will be having an interview with them soon for the Local Scene Alive blog and im really sorry to those who have been awaiting for the next feature after the Meza Virs feature but my dear partner Tharen was elongating it for far too long.He's gonna do it for sure now so really sorry to the readers.Local Scene Alive's blog will come back to life really soon.
I cant wait for the o's to be over.Ive got so many things planned!too many highlights to be even called highlights.One im itching to execute is the gig Tharen and i are organising!and you should be itching to go for it!seriously!and the money wont go into our pockets as much as we like it to be but it'll be going to one or two charity organisations.Its a mulit-genre gig and we need suggestions for the name,so feel free to suggest!
Tharen's gonna let me borrow his preeeecious(does the Lord Of The Rings voice) IPOD for a week or more(ill just give a pouty face)heheheheh!yeap his 3rd wife.yay yay yay!i HAVE NO IDEA WHERE MY MP3 PLAYER IS!!!mommy misses you!!!i'll be babysitting your cousin for a week!yay.
I have fallen in love with House Vs Hurricane!their songs are awesome!and the intro is perfect for a modern dance piece(though its metal).I also love H.I.M's Gone With The Sin,its such a tear jerker and even Tharen tears when he listens to it,it reminds him of me.(:I miss My American Heart,such cool asians and they replied to my message on Myspace!it was Jesse!wheehee.
Oh and Ling Tze is our official caterer for Tharen's and my wedding.It is awesome thats why.It'll make you want to be a vegetarian freak for life!
This is such a random long blog entry.Anyways,Nasir,Sathish,Tharen and i are movie buddies!
Kav's leaving for Arizona again on Monday and she'll be back in 2010.:(boohoo.I wish i had more time to spend with her but i couldnt because of the o's but im glad we managed to spend a whole night together(except that i was drunk) and i managed to meet her today though the whole meeting was in a car and she was driving and tharen,angeline and i were squeezed into the back!haha its so cool that she drives.She got me this PERFECT LBD(Little Black Dress)!Seriously!i totally forgot that i was fat after wearing it!i love you Kav!Its back to leaving comments on each other's friendsters and msn conversations for another 2 years.and im sure you'll become an awesome cosmo girl magazine editor after finishing your degree next year.I love you and ill really miss you(:
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Ive got my hands on the best
PICTURES FROM THE FLOWER POWER DANCE CONCERT@FTPSS'08!!!
Kelly!Our dance instructor!
Miss Kaur,my lovely English teacher.
I'm the 2nd one from the left!
I love performing!thus passion for the performing arts(:
Anyway,I didnt go to school yesterday cos i had a freakin terrible uber hangover!I felt queasy and kept seeing double and had the worst headache!I'll get Kav to send me the pictures taken on Saturday night.
Feli has been super jumpy today and im happy for her.The FVCKs always seem so down so i guess its time we look at the bright side.I've been happy just as happy as Feli too,i think its because Tharen&i have not been having arguments at all & he's happy too.We've learnt how we think differently & see things at a different angle & it works.We also learnt to have a little ego whenever someone bad mouths us cos theres always someone doing that every now and then.Like on Saturday when that "guy" backstabbed me,we strangely felt egoistic about the whole thing after that.So we're all a happy crazy bunch now.
My writers block is curing.Jane Austen helps a whole lot,her play of words can make people give a quizzical look but not for me,people who appreciate the literary arts will love her.Oh im reading Emma by the way.
On Saturday when i was out with the guys before meeting Kav,i met one of Tharen's friends & im supposed to keep hush hush about him but he seems to have some kind of authority that people fear.He gave me permission to use his name so today whenever a havoc person came near me,my head automatically repeats that guy's name & now its starting to sound like a vulgarity or some magic spell that can make the havoc people in my school stay at least 2m away from me.
Its funny how ive become so introverted.I forced myself to become introverted and now its not really that much of an act,im a natural at being an introvert now.Gosh,i should be the old Cat,i really should.
O's are nearing and ill be graduating soon & i find it hard to believe now that ive only been in FTPSS for only 7 months.It feels weird.I remember when Kaye was like "Remember last year when this person was bla bla bla" and im like "uhh i wasnt here last year" even my form teacher thought i was in ftp all along.FTP is the best out of the whole lot of schools ive been to & it sucks that ive only less than 4 months left in this school.
Theres Modern Dance tomorrow,yay.(:
Kelly!Our dance instructor!
Miss Kaur,my lovely English teacher.
I'm the 2nd one from the left!
I love performing!thus passion for the performing arts(:
Anyway,I didnt go to school yesterday cos i had a freakin terrible uber hangover!I felt queasy and kept seeing double and had the worst headache!I'll get Kav to send me the pictures taken on Saturday night.
Feli has been super jumpy today and im happy for her.The FVCKs always seem so down so i guess its time we look at the bright side.I've been happy just as happy as Feli too,i think its because Tharen&i have not been having arguments at all & he's happy too.We've learnt how we think differently & see things at a different angle & it works.We also learnt to have a little ego whenever someone bad mouths us cos theres always someone doing that every now and then.Like on Saturday when that "guy" backstabbed me,we strangely felt egoistic about the whole thing after that.So we're all a happy crazy bunch now.
My writers block is curing.Jane Austen helps a whole lot,her play of words can make people give a quizzical look but not for me,people who appreciate the literary arts will love her.Oh im reading Emma by the way.
On Saturday when i was out with the guys before meeting Kav,i met one of Tharen's friends & im supposed to keep hush hush about him but he seems to have some kind of authority that people fear.He gave me permission to use his name so today whenever a havoc person came near me,my head automatically repeats that guy's name & now its starting to sound like a vulgarity or some magic spell that can make the havoc people in my school stay at least 2m away from me.
Its funny how ive become so introverted.I forced myself to become introverted and now its not really that much of an act,im a natural at being an introvert now.Gosh,i should be the old Cat,i really should.
O's are nearing and ill be graduating soon & i find it hard to believe now that ive only been in FTPSS for only 7 months.It feels weird.I remember when Kaye was like "Remember last year when this person was bla bla bla" and im like "uhh i wasnt here last year" even my form teacher thought i was in ftp all along.FTP is the best out of the whole lot of schools ive been to & it sucks that ive only less than 4 months left in this school.
Theres Modern Dance tomorrow,yay.(:
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Who's that crazy drunk chick?
I went out the whole night last night!yay.Its been such a long time since i hoboed!
Anyway,i met Tharen&all & then met KAV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOSH 2 LONG YEARS!!!!i missed her so much!!!!ahhhh.
Yea so we went to Orchard towers,for a "tour".Yeap Tharen took us on a long traumatising tour of shemales.YUCK.But i gotta admit,they're like way hotter than normal girls.
We went to Chips after that to meet Ryan & then left for East Coast!well not after a freakin long wait though!we missed the last bus,so yea after getting in and out of 3 buses and a taxi we reached East Coast at like 2 am.
We drank vodka&jim bean,mixed with coke,duh,and i got wasted terribly and Tharen took care of me(:.He said i screaming and yelling "its Mas Selamat!",lol.Well he walked me back to our spot with the rest and left me to lie on the table.Then "someone" had a problem with Tharen taking care of me & was so pissed & all.He told him to "widen his choices" & asked him to get together with this whore in his school.Wtf ok i know shes like nuts about Tharen,what makes you think he will go after a defaced girl with a shit personality and looks right?Some friend i thought you were.So Tharen and that "guy"-not sure if he's one since he's so sensitive towards Tharen-broke into a fight & Tharen walked off.I couldnt get up at all cos i was so weak so i just lay there.
Thats when that guy started trash talking me,thinking that i couldnt hear cos he thought i was asleep.He was like "dont know why he chose this fucking bitch?" and told everyone that i ruined their jamming sessions,excuse me?im the manager of stillborn why will i ruin the band that i manage?And your ex-girlfriend booked every Saturday of yours so the band couldnt jam even if they wanted to on Saturdays cos if they did you'd feel annoyed that you werent there.I let Tharen jam whenever he wants to,im not like your ex who didnt support your passion for music.You said that i make use of Tharen,like how?emotional support comes from him with me having the need to ask for it.Money is out of the question since im not a high maintenance girl like your ex,i can support myself,i really appreciate it if tharen buys me a bottle of drink,im grateful to have someone who cares not someone who gives me a personal dollar note shower.You on the other hand,give her happiness by spending on her even now when shes not with you,you spend on her.Are we complaining that your being such a sucker with no backbone?NO.Then mind your own fucking business about Tharen and me.Just because he took care of me,it got you so worked up.He said Jia-Ting will be pissed.Like hello?Im the one who introduced Jia-Ting to the band,if it wasnt for my constant persuasion to actually give him a try,you wouldnt have an awesome drummer in the band & now you're trying to manipulate him and turn him against me?his ex classmate?.& also im not your ex to be insensitive towards Tharen by falling for another guy & rubbing it into Tharen's face.Why bother about us when you have more shitty problems?Tharen and i are so fucking happy right now.My boyfriend doesnt get angry at all,he cracks stupid jokes in a serious situation and you made him angry.Just because your girlfriend left you cos you werent good enough doesnt mean you have to butt into my relationship.Tharen& i can only suspect one thing,JEALOUSY.
Anyway,Sathish,Tharen& i had a long walk.Sathish told me that i shouldnt think too much about what that guy said cos i should only trust Sathish&Tharen,the rest are all just business partners that i should not have a close friendship with cos they're assholes.I felt better,it was such a long time where it was just Sathish,Tharen&me.Tharen comforted me till the next morning and kept making me snap out of it.They were both quite pissed with that guy,Sathish told me that he wouldnt want to see Tharen with any other girl but me.They were both really sweet,it narrowed down who cared the most.
I should have known that guy was an asshole.I should have already known he wasnt a true friend when he left my farewell party to send his girlfriend home & didnt bother what Sathish&Tharen had to say,then why should they bother about the shit that comes out from your mouth?even on my last day in Singapore before i left for England,when we were all conferencing,you said you couldnt conference cos you had to talk to your girlfriend.Unreasonable but we didnt complain,then why the fuck are you complaining?gay right?in love with Tharen right?
I already confronted him and he was being cowardly and blocked me.He said he thought Tharen and i "broke up",omg then all this while when Tharen and i were being so cuddly and kissy kissy,you thought we were just friends??
I'll listen to Tharen,he told me he's an asshole and assholes arent worth thinking about.But Thanks for sticking with me baby and thanks for taking care of me when i was drunk and thanks for assuring me and reminding me of who my true friends are.
Anyway,sorry if this post isnt interesting.Im having a hangover and ive not eaten my breakfast&lunch cos i just crashed when i got home.Im so exhausted cos i came home super late on friday night,& yesterday(saturday) i stayed out the whole night till 11am this morning,so yea lack of sleep.Feli&Wenyi's party's today but i cannot afford to let go of another night.Ive a maths test tomorrow and have a bunch on essays and SBQs to hand in.
AND KAV,I WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i felt so freakin happy when i saw her,i missed her so much.Her family is the only family that we talk to from my mom's side.Shes the sister i never had(:
Anyway,i met Tharen&all & then met KAV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOSH 2 LONG YEARS!!!!i missed her so much!!!!ahhhh.
Yea so we went to Orchard towers,for a "tour".Yeap Tharen took us on a long traumatising tour of shemales.YUCK.But i gotta admit,they're like way hotter than normal girls.
We went to Chips after that to meet Ryan & then left for East Coast!well not after a freakin long wait though!we missed the last bus,so yea after getting in and out of 3 buses and a taxi we reached East Coast at like 2 am.
We drank vodka&jim bean,mixed with coke,duh,and i got wasted terribly and Tharen took care of me(:.He said i screaming and yelling "its Mas Selamat!",lol.Well he walked me back to our spot with the rest and left me to lie on the table.Then "someone" had a problem with Tharen taking care of me & was so pissed & all.He told him to "widen his choices" & asked him to get together with this whore in his school.Wtf ok i know shes like nuts about Tharen,what makes you think he will go after a defaced girl with a shit personality and looks right?Some friend i thought you were.So Tharen and that "guy"-not sure if he's one since he's so sensitive towards Tharen-broke into a fight & Tharen walked off.I couldnt get up at all cos i was so weak so i just lay there.
Thats when that guy started trash talking me,thinking that i couldnt hear cos he thought i was asleep.He was like "dont know why he chose this fucking bitch?" and told everyone that i ruined their jamming sessions,excuse me?im the manager of stillborn why will i ruin the band that i manage?And your ex-girlfriend booked every Saturday of yours so the band couldnt jam even if they wanted to on Saturdays cos if they did you'd feel annoyed that you werent there.I let Tharen jam whenever he wants to,im not like your ex who didnt support your passion for music.You said that i make use of Tharen,like how?emotional support comes from him with me having the need to ask for it.Money is out of the question since im not a high maintenance girl like your ex,i can support myself,i really appreciate it if tharen buys me a bottle of drink,im grateful to have someone who cares not someone who gives me a personal dollar note shower.You on the other hand,give her happiness by spending on her even now when shes not with you,you spend on her.Are we complaining that your being such a sucker with no backbone?NO.Then mind your own fucking business about Tharen and me.Just because he took care of me,it got you so worked up.He said Jia-Ting will be pissed.Like hello?Im the one who introduced Jia-Ting to the band,if it wasnt for my constant persuasion to actually give him a try,you wouldnt have an awesome drummer in the band & now you're trying to manipulate him and turn him against me?his ex classmate?.& also im not your ex to be insensitive towards Tharen by falling for another guy & rubbing it into Tharen's face.Why bother about us when you have more shitty problems?Tharen and i are so fucking happy right now.My boyfriend doesnt get angry at all,he cracks stupid jokes in a serious situation and you made him angry.Just because your girlfriend left you cos you werent good enough doesnt mean you have to butt into my relationship.Tharen& i can only suspect one thing,JEALOUSY.
Anyway,Sathish,Tharen& i had a long walk.Sathish told me that i shouldnt think too much about what that guy said cos i should only trust Sathish&Tharen,the rest are all just business partners that i should not have a close friendship with cos they're assholes.I felt better,it was such a long time where it was just Sathish,Tharen&me.Tharen comforted me till the next morning and kept making me snap out of it.They were both quite pissed with that guy,Sathish told me that he wouldnt want to see Tharen with any other girl but me.They were both really sweet,it narrowed down who cared the most.
I should have known that guy was an asshole.I should have already known he wasnt a true friend when he left my farewell party to send his girlfriend home & didnt bother what Sathish&Tharen had to say,then why should they bother about the shit that comes out from your mouth?even on my last day in Singapore before i left for England,when we were all conferencing,you said you couldnt conference cos you had to talk to your girlfriend.Unreasonable but we didnt complain,then why the fuck are you complaining?gay right?in love with Tharen right?
I already confronted him and he was being cowardly and blocked me.He said he thought Tharen and i "broke up",omg then all this while when Tharen and i were being so cuddly and kissy kissy,you thought we were just friends??
I'll listen to Tharen,he told me he's an asshole and assholes arent worth thinking about.But Thanks for sticking with me baby and thanks for taking care of me when i was drunk and thanks for assuring me and reminding me of who my true friends are.
Anyway,sorry if this post isnt interesting.Im having a hangover and ive not eaten my breakfast&lunch cos i just crashed when i got home.Im so exhausted cos i came home super late on friday night,& yesterday(saturday) i stayed out the whole night till 11am this morning,so yea lack of sleep.Feli&Wenyi's party's today but i cannot afford to let go of another night.Ive a maths test tomorrow and have a bunch on essays and SBQs to hand in.
AND KAV,I WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i felt so freakin happy when i saw her,i missed her so much.Her family is the only family that we talk to from my mom's side.Shes the sister i never had(:
Friday, July 11, 2008
Everybody loves kungfu fighting!
FLOWER POWER @ FTPSS
Yeap it was yesterday.Kaye&i were excused from maths for our rehearsal & we went home after school to shower & rest cos it was gonna be a loooooooooong day for us.
Met Kaye for lunch at BOTAK JONES(: She had the Cheese fries and i had the fish&chips.Honestly,i didnt find the fish any special.I've heard a lot of people lusting over the fish&chips & yea it was nice but its not something i would crave for.I'll try the cajun chicken the next time.Anyways we had to rush to school after lunch to get our hair&make up done & i was busying pinning my undies to my shorts & my shorts to my top cos i dont want a strip show in the middle of the dance(i even wore super nice undies in case).lol.Kelly,our dance instructor sprayed tons of hair spray,hair glitter spray & hair dye spray into our hair & made our hair look super wild.Next...SHOW TIME.
Gotta admit,i felt a little nervous.I used to perform a hell lot before and i got immune to that but i think ive not performed for 2 years so yea i felt kinda nervous.We even gave each other group hugs,aww.
Our performance went well,i wasnt disturbed that i was flashing my THUNDER THIGHS to the entire world.ALL BEHOLD THE THUNDER THIGHS!!!MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!
I felt giddy after the performace,i felt dehydrated and it was sooo hot,even if there was air con!So i rushed to the water cooler with Kaye only to find Tharen there next to it,so i hid cos i know he was gonna pinch my cheeks and go all fatherly about my performace,but i signalled to him to "not know me".lol & Stella had to go "Ehhh i saw your boyfriend!!!"After a long wait,it was time for the finale where i had to flash my thunder thighs again as i was in the front row.We danced to the bollywood song,"Pretty Woman"!!& i was surrounded my really loud people so my ears were ringing.
Kaye's mom was taking pictures of us & she was snapping away.She has such a nice mom!(:I was too tired to change so i just pulled on my class tshirt & left with Tharen.We walked around at the carpark area and he was squealing at me & kept teasing me saying that i was a kungfu black belt & gave me sissy punches & kept pinching my cheeks& all.He said he felt like a father watching his little daughter perform.Haha and i kissed him to get my glitter lipgloss all over him and threatened to spray glitter spray at him.lol.
I really appreciate the fact that he came down to the concert to support me.Even if Modern Dance only had 1 slot which only lasted for 2 minutes+,he still came to watch me(: Just like how ill support him at his gigs whenever i can.
I had tons of hairspray to remove when i got home.Ugh, i hate it,my hands were aching just trying to remove all of it.
My friends who i thought would stick by me like real men couldnt care less cos they rather be cowards.I will never support you guys whenever you have someone bad mouthing you.I have risked getting bad mouthed for the sake of you guys & yet i still went on supporting.If you cant do a fair bit for me to make sure i wont get hurt again,even after a good explanation by both Tharen& me,then you guys suck.I pity Tharen too for having friends like you.
Yeap it was yesterday.Kaye&i were excused from maths for our rehearsal & we went home after school to shower & rest cos it was gonna be a loooooooooong day for us.
Met Kaye for lunch at BOTAK JONES(: She had the Cheese fries and i had the fish&chips.Honestly,i didnt find the fish any special.I've heard a lot of people lusting over the fish&chips & yea it was nice but its not something i would crave for.I'll try the cajun chicken the next time.Anyways we had to rush to school after lunch to get our hair&make up done & i was busying pinning my undies to my shorts & my shorts to my top cos i dont want a strip show in the middle of the dance(i even wore super nice undies in case).lol.Kelly,our dance instructor sprayed tons of hair spray,hair glitter spray & hair dye spray into our hair & made our hair look super wild.Next...SHOW TIME.
Gotta admit,i felt a little nervous.I used to perform a hell lot before and i got immune to that but i think ive not performed for 2 years so yea i felt kinda nervous.We even gave each other group hugs,aww.
Our performance went well,i wasnt disturbed that i was flashing my THUNDER THIGHS to the entire world.ALL BEHOLD THE THUNDER THIGHS!!!MUHAHAHAHAHA!!!
I felt giddy after the performace,i felt dehydrated and it was sooo hot,even if there was air con!So i rushed to the water cooler with Kaye only to find Tharen there next to it,so i hid cos i know he was gonna pinch my cheeks and go all fatherly about my performace,but i signalled to him to "not know me".lol & Stella had to go "Ehhh i saw your boyfriend!!!"After a long wait,it was time for the finale where i had to flash my thunder thighs again as i was in the front row.We danced to the bollywood song,"Pretty Woman"!!& i was surrounded my really loud people so my ears were ringing.
Kaye's mom was taking pictures of us & she was snapping away.She has such a nice mom!(:I was too tired to change so i just pulled on my class tshirt & left with Tharen.We walked around at the carpark area and he was squealing at me & kept teasing me saying that i was a kungfu black belt & gave me sissy punches & kept pinching my cheeks& all.He said he felt like a father watching his little daughter perform.Haha and i kissed him to get my glitter lipgloss all over him and threatened to spray glitter spray at him.lol.
I really appreciate the fact that he came down to the concert to support me.Even if Modern Dance only had 1 slot which only lasted for 2 minutes+,he still came to watch me(: Just like how ill support him at his gigs whenever i can.
I had tons of hairspray to remove when i got home.Ugh, i hate it,my hands were aching just trying to remove all of it.
My friends who i thought would stick by me like real men couldnt care less cos they rather be cowards.I will never support you guys whenever you have someone bad mouthing you.I have risked getting bad mouthed for the sake of you guys & yet i still went on supporting.If you cant do a fair bit for me to make sure i wont get hurt again,even after a good explanation by both Tharen& me,then you guys suck.I pity Tharen too for having friends like you.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Whirlwind of a week
2 nights ago,i had a disturbing dream.It was about some people and one of which i have yet to think of for a long time,he was mocking me badly.His girlfriend laughed at me,we used to be so close.I tried to tell her that she can do better than a jerk but she barely listened to me.I was thrown to the floor and he reminded me of the things i succeeded in forgetting but now its gone to waste,all by a dream.I woke up wanting to cry & i thought of Tharen,cos he will protect me from all this.I even remember Sathish saying he will bash that guy up if he ever sees him.I dont wish to be detailed about the dream,but it haunts me.Why am i at the losing end when he was in the wrong?I am a girl who does not bear grudges but if its someone who affected me badly,the grudge i bear is a terrible one.I dont understand why i let you off scratch free,i should have found pleasure in your suffering.I should have mocked at you in delight as you burn,whats more?i was given the power to do so.What did i do?i put down the sword & turned away.
One thing is for sure,KARMA!
Tharen is my angel,all this while ive not been thinking about the past because of him.I am grateful to have him,life is good cos ive not shed a tear about many things after becoming his girlfriend.This stupid dream came but im sure im gonna forget all about it soon?I've something up my sleeves though;) i recently found out that that guy has stepped into the local scene & Tharen is gonna shred you & i'm not talking about the guitar.Poser,you wont go any higher & ive forgotten but have not forgiven & Anna can be really mean when people mess with her & you're definitely going down.I'll be the driver of that karma thats gonna hit you so hard,you're gonna get so badly ruined & i'll feed you to cannibals.Unique meat,bitch meat.Evil or not,i deserve it.
That aside,Kav called just now!!!Its so great to talk to her & we're meeting this saturday!!I miss her so much!!!We're gonna hobo with Sathish and all.(:
This Friday is my dance concert.They named it "Flower Power",how cheesy.We're dancing to "Kungfu Fighting" & Tharen's gonna laugh.The dance is pretty okay so if you wanna watch me do kungfu dancing,If you're willing to part with $5,come down to my school at 7.30pm this Friday.Its not that fair though,Modern dance is only doing 1 dance number for only 2 minutes + while Malay Dance & Chinese Dance are doing 3 or 4 dance numbers each and each dance lasts more than 2 minutes.Kinda sad that Modern Dance isnt given much priority.
School is such a blur.School work has been piling up & our principal actually stepped into our chem class today to give us a pep talk & asked us random chem questions which put me on the spot cos i had no clue.It scares me.O's are nearing damnit.The last day of my big O is when i'd be feeling like i had an O,seriously wont that feeling be just so orgasmic?Till then my head will be buried in books.I'm working hard to get into MI,people say its not something to work hard for but i wanna be the big fish in the small pond.
I'm having writers block & its been bugging me.Strangely,i feel like crying because of that.To write something like an essay, i dont have to think for long,i can just write almost flawlessly & suddenly its like im out of oil or something.I try to take a deep breath & do it naturally like always but NO.I wanted to break down,writing is something i thought i could always excel in.Its something i want to pursue as a career.Its like im suffering from a terrible disease & am paralysed in literacy.I hope i get out of it asap.Maybe its just the paranoia that ive been having lately,im sure ill be okay once i shake off that stupid paranoia.
For some reason,i feel like reading Jane Austen.Dont ask.
One thing is for sure,KARMA!
Tharen is my angel,all this while ive not been thinking about the past because of him.I am grateful to have him,life is good cos ive not shed a tear about many things after becoming his girlfriend.This stupid dream came but im sure im gonna forget all about it soon?I've something up my sleeves though;) i recently found out that that guy has stepped into the local scene & Tharen is gonna shred you & i'm not talking about the guitar.Poser,you wont go any higher & ive forgotten but have not forgiven & Anna can be really mean when people mess with her & you're definitely going down.I'll be the driver of that karma thats gonna hit you so hard,you're gonna get so badly ruined & i'll feed you to cannibals.Unique meat,bitch meat.Evil or not,i deserve it.
That aside,Kav called just now!!!Its so great to talk to her & we're meeting this saturday!!I miss her so much!!!We're gonna hobo with Sathish and all.(:
This Friday is my dance concert.They named it "Flower Power",how cheesy.We're dancing to "Kungfu Fighting" & Tharen's gonna laugh.The dance is pretty okay so if you wanna watch me do kungfu dancing,If you're willing to part with $5,come down to my school at 7.30pm this Friday.Its not that fair though,Modern dance is only doing 1 dance number for only 2 minutes + while Malay Dance & Chinese Dance are doing 3 or 4 dance numbers each and each dance lasts more than 2 minutes.Kinda sad that Modern Dance isnt given much priority.
School is such a blur.School work has been piling up & our principal actually stepped into our chem class today to give us a pep talk & asked us random chem questions which put me on the spot cos i had no clue.It scares me.O's are nearing damnit.The last day of my big O is when i'd be feeling like i had an O,seriously wont that feeling be just so orgasmic?Till then my head will be buried in books.I'm working hard to get into MI,people say its not something to work hard for but i wanna be the big fish in the small pond.
I'm having writers block & its been bugging me.Strangely,i feel like crying because of that.To write something like an essay, i dont have to think for long,i can just write almost flawlessly & suddenly its like im out of oil or something.I try to take a deep breath & do it naturally like always but NO.I wanted to break down,writing is something i thought i could always excel in.Its something i want to pursue as a career.Its like im suffering from a terrible disease & am paralysed in literacy.I hope i get out of it asap.Maybe its just the paranoia that ive been having lately,im sure ill be okay once i shake off that stupid paranoia.
For some reason,i feel like reading Jane Austen.Dont ask.
Friday, July 04, 2008
tingaling
Hello
Went to watch Hancock with Tharen & Nasir after school.Sathish was really nice,he dragged himself out of my bed with droopy eyes to show me the way to get me from the bus stop to show me the way to the place.He didnt come along with me though,probably went back home to sleep.lol.So yea,We got out snacks from fairprice & Nasir was making fun of all the manjans there & he even told the cashier "Thank you manjan!" & i as my usual self hid behind the chips & to my surprise even Tharen hid with me,gosh Tharen is the KING OF NO SHAME!!!Well Tharen&Nasir=DOUBLE TROUBLE!!!Hancock was good,Tharen was going nuts again in the cinema,lol.Ugh its because of him that i laughed at the "emotional" scenes when watching Rocky during the Adam Khoo camp!!!
Tharen has ressurected his blog! http://tharen-696.blogspot.com , all "we hate Tharen's girlfriend" members can go flood his tagboard now with secret admirer messages!yay!I created his blogskin&all that so finally he's updating it almost everyday.He should update anyway since theres always something exciting happening everyday for him,apart from me of course the most exciting...sorry that was my alter ego,she can get really egoistic(:
I've been reading Kaye's japanese comic books & fell in love with them again.The only comic book series i read was Love For Venus which was really good and now i'm reading Absolute Boyfriend which is freakin nice.I'll only read the love stories,not the others.I can really relate to some of the situations,the stuff that Riiko faces except that Tharen is not a robot which i ordered online,but he is more or less tailor made for me.Ah shit i miss him.I wanna climb into bed and get into his arms,its just the most comfortable and assuring feeling&most of the time thats all i need to forget my troubles & his fuzzy wuzzy tummy makes it a plus too...so Tharen,dont lose the tummy OKAY?!
He makes the most awesome mee goreng & its vegetarian by the way!No beef,no eggs,no fish cake & yet its heavenly.I know i tend to be a tad too biased but seriously Tharen is the best cook & i'm glad i have him.I dont mind being a vegetarian&give up meat for good since ive such a good cook at hand(:Yea anyway,mock fishballs are so yummy & better than real fishballs.Tharen will be the official cook when we move to Australia,i told him that & he was like "but im supposed to have my wife's cooking as well" well your wife doesnt know anything about cooking,your wife attempts to run out of the science lab when people switch on the bunsen burner,your wife finished her chem practical half an hour earlier than everyone else cos she didnt heat the unknown solutions(but she passed it anyway;]) your wife only knows how to cook spaghetti but your wife will learn how to cook good food soon since your wife is with someone who gets hungry after having a feast 15 minutes ago.My cooking isnt scary btw,my sister loves it & Tharen's brother likes it too!So does Tharen,yay.
Anyway,my dance concert is coming up.Nasir,Sathish&Tharen are coming and i hope they sit waaaaay at the back.I will laugh half way on stage seriously.The dance is quite alright though,i was quite reluctant to take part in it when Kaye told me the song we were dancing to,you know the song that goes "Everybody loves Kungfu Fighting,nanananana" but it turned out to be good.Tharen&Sathish will laugh for sure since they already started calling me kungfu fighter since last year(Inside joke) cos if the way my hand moves around when im talking.
I lost weight!its not 10kg that i lost though,just 5.5kg!!!but thats okay,i'm still progressing.Hope Tharen doesnt cook on Saturday cos he'll tempt me on purpose.He wants me to be fat cos he likes it & i want him to be fat cos i like it too but we both hate the fact that we are fat which sucks.Tharen i dont care,you're gonna give in!!!!i want the tummy!!!
I've a full dress dance rehearsal tomorrow for the flower power concert,school's providing snacks,yay!& we'll be in our costumes so behold the thunder thighs!!!ROAR!I'll be going over to Tharen's place after that & next week i'll be meeting KAV!!!We'll be hoboing!!!yay!
Anyways,despite the fact that ive only been in this school for half a year,i feel really attached to it.Maybe cos i got through it on my own.In YCKSS,i had 1 or 2 friends who i already knew who were there with me & in Whitley theres was no problem at all trying to adjust cos my entire clique is from that school but in FTPSS i had to do everything on my own&get to know people on my own,there was no clique/friends there for me to stick with&get to know other people from there on.I was on my own & i dont regret it.I met Feli,Vimi&Kaye!!!Its not a bad thing at all having to do my o's this year cos if i didnt get into ftp i wouldnt have these wonderful friends& i would definitely miss them after graduation.
Went to watch Hancock with Tharen & Nasir after school.Sathish was really nice,he dragged himself out of my bed with droopy eyes to show me the way to get me from the bus stop to show me the way to the place.He didnt come along with me though,probably went back home to sleep.lol.So yea,We got out snacks from fairprice & Nasir was making fun of all the manjans there & he even told the cashier "Thank you manjan!" & i as my usual self hid behind the chips & to my surprise even Tharen hid with me,gosh Tharen is the KING OF NO SHAME!!!Well Tharen&Nasir=DOUBLE TROUBLE!!!Hancock was good,Tharen was going nuts again in the cinema,lol.Ugh its because of him that i laughed at the "emotional" scenes when watching Rocky during the Adam Khoo camp!!!
Tharen has ressurected his blog! http://tharen-696.blogspot.com , all "we hate Tharen's girlfriend" members can go flood his tagboard now with secret admirer messages!yay!I created his blogskin&all that so finally he's updating it almost everyday.He should update anyway since theres always something exciting happening everyday for him,apart from me of course the most exciting...sorry that was my alter ego,she can get really egoistic(:
I've been reading Kaye's japanese comic books & fell in love with them again.The only comic book series i read was Love For Venus which was really good and now i'm reading Absolute Boyfriend which is freakin nice.I'll only read the love stories,not the others.I can really relate to some of the situations,the stuff that Riiko faces except that Tharen is not a robot which i ordered online,but he is more or less tailor made for me.Ah shit i miss him.I wanna climb into bed and get into his arms,its just the most comfortable and assuring feeling&most of the time thats all i need to forget my troubles & his fuzzy wuzzy tummy makes it a plus too...so Tharen,dont lose the tummy OKAY?!
He makes the most awesome mee goreng & its vegetarian by the way!No beef,no eggs,no fish cake & yet its heavenly.I know i tend to be a tad too biased but seriously Tharen is the best cook & i'm glad i have him.I dont mind being a vegetarian&give up meat for good since ive such a good cook at hand(:Yea anyway,mock fishballs are so yummy & better than real fishballs.Tharen will be the official cook when we move to Australia,i told him that & he was like "but im supposed to have my wife's cooking as well" well your wife doesnt know anything about cooking,your wife attempts to run out of the science lab when people switch on the bunsen burner,your wife finished her chem practical half an hour earlier than everyone else cos she didnt heat the unknown solutions(but she passed it anyway;]) your wife only knows how to cook spaghetti but your wife will learn how to cook good food soon since your wife is with someone who gets hungry after having a feast 15 minutes ago.My cooking isnt scary btw,my sister loves it & Tharen's brother likes it too!So does Tharen,yay.
Anyway,my dance concert is coming up.Nasir,Sathish&Tharen are coming and i hope they sit waaaaay at the back.I will laugh half way on stage seriously.The dance is quite alright though,i was quite reluctant to take part in it when Kaye told me the song we were dancing to,you know the song that goes "Everybody loves Kungfu Fighting,nanananana" but it turned out to be good.Tharen&Sathish will laugh for sure since they already started calling me kungfu fighter since last year(Inside joke) cos if the way my hand moves around when im talking.
I lost weight!its not 10kg that i lost though,just 5.5kg!!!but thats okay,i'm still progressing.Hope Tharen doesnt cook on Saturday cos he'll tempt me on purpose.He wants me to be fat cos he likes it & i want him to be fat cos i like it too but we both hate the fact that we are fat which sucks.Tharen i dont care,you're gonna give in!!!!i want the tummy!!!
I've a full dress dance rehearsal tomorrow for the flower power concert,school's providing snacks,yay!& we'll be in our costumes so behold the thunder thighs!!!ROAR!I'll be going over to Tharen's place after that & next week i'll be meeting KAV!!!We'll be hoboing!!!yay!
Anyways,despite the fact that ive only been in this school for half a year,i feel really attached to it.Maybe cos i got through it on my own.In YCKSS,i had 1 or 2 friends who i already knew who were there with me & in Whitley theres was no problem at all trying to adjust cos my entire clique is from that school but in FTPSS i had to do everything on my own&get to know people on my own,there was no clique/friends there for me to stick with&get to know other people from there on.I was on my own & i dont regret it.I met Feli,Vimi&Kaye!!!Its not a bad thing at all having to do my o's this year cos if i didnt get into ftp i wouldnt have these wonderful friends& i would definitely miss them after graduation.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I see naked people...
Took this quite some time ago.I told him to save it for marriage so he went ahead to do it with a monkey!
I feel evil,muhahahahaha.Ive naked pictures of someone.Its not like i stole it.This is what happens when you send naked pictures of yourself to unsuspecting people to seduce them and they lose their appetite after that.Think non existent boobs,buttless and lots of pubic hair,its almost alien like.Well this is also what happens when you try to seduce someone who doesnt like you.
I wonder what to do with them...send it around?i mean shes already a skank,will just make more guys appear on her bed & she'll be glad to make her pussy more loose than it already is *cough*pregnant twice*cough*.Report her as an exhibitionist?she caused my poor friend to have sore eyes after he saw the pictures&haunting nightmares..not wet dreams but NIGHTMARES.
Or since im trying to lose weight,i should use her pictures to induce my vomit everytime i eat cos i seriously need to lose 10kg wtf.
Well thats what she did to claim her fame,yuck.Its like a naked juon.
Haha im from Marymount,people from Marymount can be evil at times,lol.Tharen is nodding his head in agreement.
By the way,to PunkRock in my tagboard,the girl i was talking about in my previous posts will know who she is.She caused a problem between Tharen and me when i was living in England last year,thats all im gonna say(:
Ok!Ive the pictures taken on Thursday!Here they are!
Do the CHANANAS!
Some people are just not happy with Tharen and me being together.Good dont be happy,cos jealousy just shows us that we're way too good.and better.
Anyways,if you've read my past posts,Tharen and i are organising a gig.Its gonna be at The Arts House,Playden.We already know where to get kick ass equpiment and where to get a sound techinician.Tharen already found a ticket supplier.Thanks to connections,advertising isnt much of a problem.All we need now is more bands to play and some ticket ambassadors to help us sell tickets.Right now we only have Withered Tree and Deus Ex Machina in the line up and we hope to get West Grand Boulevard,Plain Sunset,A Vacant Affair and some others.
I know a band that can draw a huge crowd but its unfortunate of me to be the neice of one of the members.Because of that i cant attend some gigs or even hang out with people and now Tharen's band is close to theirs which makes things worst.I'm supposed to play an innocent,goody goody girl:(which isnt fair cos there are so many skanks in the music scene that are younger than me and he knows them and doesnt complain but im sure if im like that,id be so dead.Its so unfair cos im active in the local music scene and im so vulnerable in getting caught cos he's the pioneer of the local scene.ugh,people keep telling me its so cool to have him as an uncle,seriously though,its NOT cool!I find it cool sometimes cos he's famous and all but whats the point if ive to been in hiding.
The gig is for charity!so we can be devilic angels at the same time.It wont be anytime soon but the gig planning has already started so we wont have any last minute complications.While we're at it,we get to prove to some people that we can have an awesome kick ass gig without forcing bands to pay up for unsold tickets so yes we will and we're not a money minded corporate entity.We do it to promote the local scene and not feast on the almost empty pockets of bands who wish to make it in the scene.
Okay,yesterday i went out with my awesome clique from Whitley(:I miss them so much.I miss the bitching and all.I met Harlene,Nurul and Dinesh at Bugis and i finally had my yakitori chicken skin and Harlene was like "You're supposed to be a vegetarian" but i told her that im giving it up just for that day,oops.We headed to Plaza Sing and sat at Starbucks and Nethra came after awhile and we were talking about this girl who used to be in our clique.That girl turned a lot of us against each other in the clique,she made Nethra and i pity her cos she said that some of us ditched her.She made use of people and all,gosh now its all out so im glad we all know.We went to Istana park after that to camwhore and its freakin beautiful!then we went to Parklane Mall and you should have seen Nurul and me when we were in the lift,the freakin lift was enclosed by dark walls and i started screaming and hugging Nethra.Sat around at the carpark and then left.We were supposed to meet Tharen there first before his jamming with Deus Ex Machina but his jamming got pushed forward and i was late so we went home instead.I miss the CHANANAS.I think we're really bitchy yet funny and nice at the same time.
Oh yea,the line that some guy sent to some girl we know-I dont want to be part of the storybook,i want to be the storybook.We were laughing at this!HAHAHAHAHAHA.Cheesy,i cannot imagine Tharen saying such things,if he does it'll be in the most sarcastic way.I miss him,his tummy and his curly hair.You should see him when he's shy,its freakin cute and when i tell him that he gets more shy but sorry he's too thick skinned to be shy unless he's alone with me.Like some indian girl about to get married to an unsuspecting guy.
Stillborn has photoshoots coming up!yay!
p.s sorry for the lack of pictures,ive gotten really lazy to whip out the camera but i will be updating the pictures that i took with the chananas on thursday(:
Anyways,if you've read my past posts,Tharen and i are organising a gig.Its gonna be at The Arts House,Playden.We already know where to get kick ass equpiment and where to get a sound techinician.Tharen already found a ticket supplier.Thanks to connections,advertising isnt much of a problem.All we need now is more bands to play and some ticket ambassadors to help us sell tickets.Right now we only have Withered Tree and Deus Ex Machina in the line up and we hope to get West Grand Boulevard,Plain Sunset,A Vacant Affair and some others.
I know a band that can draw a huge crowd but its unfortunate of me to be the neice of one of the members.Because of that i cant attend some gigs or even hang out with people and now Tharen's band is close to theirs which makes things worst.I'm supposed to play an innocent,goody goody girl:(which isnt fair cos there are so many skanks in the music scene that are younger than me and he knows them and doesnt complain but im sure if im like that,id be so dead.Its so unfair cos im active in the local music scene and im so vulnerable in getting caught cos he's the pioneer of the local scene.ugh,people keep telling me its so cool to have him as an uncle,seriously though,its NOT cool!I find it cool sometimes cos he's famous and all but whats the point if ive to been in hiding.
The gig is for charity!so we can be devilic angels at the same time.It wont be anytime soon but the gig planning has already started so we wont have any last minute complications.While we're at it,we get to prove to some people that we can have an awesome kick ass gig without forcing bands to pay up for unsold tickets so yes we will and we're not a money minded corporate entity.We do it to promote the local scene and not feast on the almost empty pockets of bands who wish to make it in the scene.
Okay,yesterday i went out with my awesome clique from Whitley(:I miss them so much.I miss the bitching and all.I met Harlene,Nurul and Dinesh at Bugis and i finally had my yakitori chicken skin and Harlene was like "You're supposed to be a vegetarian" but i told her that im giving it up just for that day,oops.We headed to Plaza Sing and sat at Starbucks and Nethra came after awhile and we were talking about this girl who used to be in our clique.That girl turned a lot of us against each other in the clique,she made Nethra and i pity her cos she said that some of us ditched her.She made use of people and all,gosh now its all out so im glad we all know.We went to Istana park after that to camwhore and its freakin beautiful!then we went to Parklane Mall and you should have seen Nurul and me when we were in the lift,the freakin lift was enclosed by dark walls and i started screaming and hugging Nethra.Sat around at the carpark and then left.We were supposed to meet Tharen there first before his jamming with Deus Ex Machina but his jamming got pushed forward and i was late so we went home instead.I miss the CHANANAS.I think we're really bitchy yet funny and nice at the same time.
Oh yea,the line that some guy sent to some girl we know-I dont want to be part of the storybook,i want to be the storybook.We were laughing at this!HAHAHAHAHAHA.Cheesy,i cannot imagine Tharen saying such things,if he does it'll be in the most sarcastic way.I miss him,his tummy and his curly hair.You should see him when he's shy,its freakin cute and when i tell him that he gets more shy but sorry he's too thick skinned to be shy unless he's alone with me.Like some indian girl about to get married to an unsuspecting guy.
Stillborn has photoshoots coming up!yay!
p.s sorry for the lack of pictures,ive gotten really lazy to whip out the camera but i will be updating the pictures that i took with the chananas on thursday(:
Monday, June 16, 2008
I need more weekends.
Weekend's over but it was great.
On Friday,i met my cousin Simon and my aunt.Well i call her my aunt but shes more like an elder sister.I cant believe Simon's so grown up!he's already sec 3!!haha he's from St Patricks and he has already been bitten by the St Patrick's bug.Anyways,we went to watch the Chronicles Of Narnia-Prince Caspian and it was really good.Narnia's such a beautiful place and wish there was such a parallel universe.We went over to our make believe Narnia after lunch,Toa Payoh Town Park,HAHAHAHA,and we told ghost stories and all.I miss them so much,we're always a team.Lol,there were some weird people running around with toy guns in the park...they were adults!Think they were playing paintball.
On Saturday,I spent the day at Tharen's house!It was really fun except when he kept trying to scare me by playing those scary horror movie tunes on the guitar.I really feel happy when im with him(:Oh yea,the Botak Jones fries failed in making him gain weight!he lost weight!NO!I WANT THE TUMMY!
Sunday was Fathers' Day.My sister and i bought my grand dad the WWE cd he's always wanted.Ya he's a crazy wrestling fan,i mean CRAZY!We bought my dad his fave Adidas perfume.
Ok anyways.I am very protective of my boyfriend and no one talks ill of my Tharen alright.I am directing this to some people who does nothing for the local scene but acts like they do hell loads.You said that Tharen is NOT in a well known band?this shows you have not been much in the local scene to know,HE'S IN DEUS EX MACHINA FOR GAWD'S SAKE!They are known in and out of Singapore.They're touring US this year with big bands like Nightwish,Opeth,Children of Bodom,MEGADEATH,etc and next year they will be touring Europe!!!!!Yes you can say that Stillborn is not well known but they are not acting like they have "made it" in the local scene.They are actually very humble about it & have no attitude that they have made it.You said that Tharen should change his interest?Guitar is his life and he knows more about the local scene than you do.Actually,you know nothing.I know what you did out of desperation to get something.Your fame came from your pussy.People who organise gigs without having much knowledge about music are most probably doing it for the money.I know what you'll do next,turn to your famous friends to help you cos you cant speak for yourself,but we do it with sheer hard work.We will prosper in the music scene with hard work and i assure you Stillborn WILL make it.All you people did was demoralise the local music scene.The local scene is already very small,why the hell are you giving false hope to bands?its a stupid organisation.You dont even audition or listen to the band's demos to get them to play at your gig.They just tell you they want to play and you let them and you force them to sell tickets and pay for the unsold tickets.Bottomline is,its for the money.People who prosper in the scene through wrong ways will eventually go down.Tharen who has true talent and the rest of Stillborn,Sathish,Lyon and Jia-Ting who all have true talents will get through with hard work and lots of support from people who believes in them and i as their manager will not sleep around or send naked pictures to people to help Stillborn make it.We will do it with hard work.
The local scene is too small to have dislikes so why cause one?
Once a whore,you're nothing more remember?
On Friday,i met my cousin Simon and my aunt.Well i call her my aunt but shes more like an elder sister.I cant believe Simon's so grown up!he's already sec 3!!haha he's from St Patricks and he has already been bitten by the St Patrick's bug.Anyways,we went to watch the Chronicles Of Narnia-Prince Caspian and it was really good.Narnia's such a beautiful place and wish there was such a parallel universe.We went over to our make believe Narnia after lunch,Toa Payoh Town Park,HAHAHAHA,and we told ghost stories and all.I miss them so much,we're always a team.Lol,there were some weird people running around with toy guns in the park...they were adults!Think they were playing paintball.
On Saturday,I spent the day at Tharen's house!It was really fun except when he kept trying to scare me by playing those scary horror movie tunes on the guitar.I really feel happy when im with him(:Oh yea,the Botak Jones fries failed in making him gain weight!he lost weight!NO!I WANT THE TUMMY!
Sunday was Fathers' Day.My sister and i bought my grand dad the WWE cd he's always wanted.Ya he's a crazy wrestling fan,i mean CRAZY!We bought my dad his fave Adidas perfume.
Ok anyways.I am very protective of my boyfriend and no one talks ill of my Tharen alright.I am directing this to some people who does nothing for the local scene but acts like they do hell loads.You said that Tharen is NOT in a well known band?this shows you have not been much in the local scene to know,HE'S IN DEUS EX MACHINA FOR GAWD'S SAKE!They are known in and out of Singapore.They're touring US this year with big bands like Nightwish,Opeth,Children of Bodom,MEGADEATH,etc and next year they will be touring Europe!!!!!Yes you can say that Stillborn is not well known but they are not acting like they have "made it" in the local scene.They are actually very humble about it & have no attitude that they have made it.You said that Tharen should change his interest?Guitar is his life and he knows more about the local scene than you do.Actually,you know nothing.I know what you did out of desperation to get something.Your fame came from your pussy.People who organise gigs without having much knowledge about music are most probably doing it for the money.I know what you'll do next,turn to your famous friends to help you cos you cant speak for yourself,but we do it with sheer hard work.We will prosper in the music scene with hard work and i assure you Stillborn WILL make it.All you people did was demoralise the local music scene.The local scene is already very small,why the hell are you giving false hope to bands?its a stupid organisation.You dont even audition or listen to the band's demos to get them to play at your gig.They just tell you they want to play and you let them and you force them to sell tickets and pay for the unsold tickets.Bottomline is,its for the money.People who prosper in the scene through wrong ways will eventually go down.Tharen who has true talent and the rest of Stillborn,Sathish,Lyon and Jia-Ting who all have true talents will get through with hard work and lots of support from people who believes in them and i as their manager will not sleep around or send naked pictures to people to help Stillborn make it.We will do it with hard work.
The local scene is too small to have dislikes so why cause one?
Once a whore,you're nothing more remember?
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Sinful
Wheee its Tuuuuuesday.
Kav's coming back from Arizona for holidays after more than 2 years!!yay shes coming on Thursday!!!i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait!I miss her tons!
Anyways,I met Tharen to day for lunch at none other than Botak Jones.We both cheated on ourselves.We were trying so hard to lose weight and we both succeeded in losing weight and then we had the craving for Botak Jones and the weight loss plan we were religously following went down the drain.NOOOOOOO.But its alright,was worth it.He didnt have Botak Jones for 2 months and he was so happy to see the hot plate of cheese fries.We couldnt finish it though so i packed it for my sister and for some reason they gave me free coleslaw.We didnt take pictures,actually ive not taken pictures in a long time.I'm too lazy to get the camera.He wanted me to come over after lunch but i was freakin tired and no way am i ever gonna hide in his wardrobe whenever somone comes home.
If not for my 13 years of yoga,i wouldnt have been able to squeeze myself and get into awkward positions in his wardrobe.Well its not his cos it has saris in it!lol.I went over to his place yesterday and did just that.I love his bed,its super comfy but he doesnt let me fall asleep cos he'd start tickling me.I prefer him fat,his tummy went down and when i put my leg around him it wasnt that soft anymore.I remember when he was asking Aslina advice about me before he asked me to be his girlfriend,Aslina told him i liked guys with tummys and whenever a guy wants to go out with me,she'd tell them that they cant cos they dont have a tummy.Kinda true,haha.Tharen's tummy is the best!its so comfortable!go see the thambi k seow videos on youtube,you can see him flashing his tummy!its like a pillow but it went down now!!hope the cheese fries made it go back to its original size.yay.
I dont feel emo today,i feel really happy.Anyways,Tharen said Nasir will be joining us in Melbourne.Cool cos theres always room for the gang.If only i get that scholarship,funny cos its Nasir's dad that conducts the interview for the scholarship.I should tell his dad that i know a lot of things about Nasir and his trips to certain places and will only tell his dad if he gives me the scholarship.Muhahahaha.Nahh,im not mean,im serious about the scholarship and will get it the right way of course.
Stillborn's great now.I think ive said this a gazillion times but im really proud of them.As their proud manager,i found them a couple of photoshoots for band promos.I cant wait;)
Meeting Nethra tomorrow,we're gonna hang at AMK which is great cos i missed her party:)Hopefully we'd take pictures.
Kav's coming back from Arizona for holidays after more than 2 years!!yay shes coming on Thursday!!!i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait!I miss her tons!
Anyways,I met Tharen to day for lunch at none other than Botak Jones.We both cheated on ourselves.We were trying so hard to lose weight and we both succeeded in losing weight and then we had the craving for Botak Jones and the weight loss plan we were religously following went down the drain.NOOOOOOO.But its alright,was worth it.He didnt have Botak Jones for 2 months and he was so happy to see the hot plate of cheese fries.We couldnt finish it though so i packed it for my sister and for some reason they gave me free coleslaw.We didnt take pictures,actually ive not taken pictures in a long time.I'm too lazy to get the camera.He wanted me to come over after lunch but i was freakin tired and no way am i ever gonna hide in his wardrobe whenever somone comes home.
If not for my 13 years of yoga,i wouldnt have been able to squeeze myself and get into awkward positions in his wardrobe.Well its not his cos it has saris in it!lol.I went over to his place yesterday and did just that.I love his bed,its super comfy but he doesnt let me fall asleep cos he'd start tickling me.I prefer him fat,his tummy went down and when i put my leg around him it wasnt that soft anymore.I remember when he was asking Aslina advice about me before he asked me to be his girlfriend,Aslina told him i liked guys with tummys and whenever a guy wants to go out with me,she'd tell them that they cant cos they dont have a tummy.Kinda true,haha.Tharen's tummy is the best!its so comfortable!go see the thambi k seow videos on youtube,you can see him flashing his tummy!its like a pillow but it went down now!!hope the cheese fries made it go back to its original size.yay.
I dont feel emo today,i feel really happy.Anyways,Tharen said Nasir will be joining us in Melbourne.Cool cos theres always room for the gang.If only i get that scholarship,funny cos its Nasir's dad that conducts the interview for the scholarship.I should tell his dad that i know a lot of things about Nasir and his trips to certain places and will only tell his dad if he gives me the scholarship.Muhahahaha.Nahh,im not mean,im serious about the scholarship and will get it the right way of course.
Stillborn's great now.I think ive said this a gazillion times but im really proud of them.As their proud manager,i found them a couple of photoshoots for band promos.I cant wait;)
Meeting Nethra tomorrow,we're gonna hang at AMK which is great cos i missed her party:)Hopefully we'd take pictures.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Goner
Attention people,attention people.I am no longer Ms Bitchy,it ended 3 years ago.If i seem outspoken,im sorry.I only say it if i feel its right and its never EVER for the wrong reasons.Neither do i confront or "start problems" for the wrong reasons.
Now i hate the term "friends with benefits".It could mean anything.It could mean hidden agendas,it could mean you want to take advantage of that friend,have sex when you feel like it,it could mean you want that guy to fall for you so you become his "friend".It has plenty of meanings.Also,when it comes to "friends with benefits",there is the predator and prey.This is when the prey is not aware.When both parties are aware,then well,its cannibalistic but this is the most common one.Usually,the predator and prey part can be carried out anytime,if the prey is in a relationship or not.
So why do people put up an act and fake a friendship to get "closer" to someone?to get something they cant have?or its just their strategy to get to that person.Whatever it is,it works.Unfortunately,it works.The prey would easily be lured into the predators cave,more like seduced.Its really easy,because it all goes on behind closed doors.Its really unpreditable,no one would ever know if its a real or fake friendship they're having.
I know a couple of people who are weak and with no willpower and gets easily lured but theres some kind of force field in that "cave" so he/she has yet to get in.Im afraid he/she will soon.Its a pity when some of them know whats going on and just give in.Theres a very very thin line,almost invisible line between friends and friends with benefits.Those who know this but dont live by it,like me for example,are always at the losing end.But i do know that people who dont live by it will never live on a lie and are more aware on whats real and not.They have a smaller circle of friends,sometimes its not even enough to create a circle,but its enough.
Why am i saying this?cos im going through a phase.Ive a couple of friends who are preys,its so hard to tell explain to them cos they dont get it at all.I end up as someone who assumes a lot and accuses people for nothing.I dont go all like "THAT FUCKING SLUT IS FUCKING MEAN TO ME BUT IS SO FUCKING NICE TO YOU PEOPLE COS SHE WANTS ME THROWN OUT AND COS SHES FUCKING FLIRTING WITH YOU?ARE YOU FUCKING THICK TO NOT FUCKING GET IT?!?!?!?!".I try to say it in the most nice way and explain it in detail without accusing so that you'd get it,but no,i get the same response anyway.That i accuse and assume a lot.They also tell me that i over react,exaggerate and think too much.Fine,i know i think waaay too much.I think beyond the horizons when something comes up but i end up being right!Theres nothing i can do but get myself hurt in the end.Theres nothing one can do when the prey starts trusting the predator and less of you.The predator is always sneaky and careful so the prey wouldnt suspect a thing.The predator drafts a very smart plan and then executes it.What if you used to be the predator and you knew how a predator thinks and then you convert to a normal person and then you have a friend whos a prey and you try to help that friend but the friend has already fallen into that nasty trap?you know what i do?i just cry cos ive gone all out but once a prey you'd always be a prey.Until you realise it yourself,but if you think really practically,you'd always be the prey.
Maybe i just shouldnt care huh?let them be the prey.Let them tell you to "think practically and logically",more like be more narrow minded.Let them tell you that YOU are narrow minded and should be more open minded when they are the ones with the narrow mind.Let them be cos they dont give a fuck at all.As for me,i should be like how i was years ago.Be freaking outgoing,it would scare you.It'll be so immoral and you cant do anything about it cos it'll be like the pot calling the kettle black.More like the manslut calling the skank a whore.
Now i hate the term "friends with benefits".It could mean anything.It could mean hidden agendas,it could mean you want to take advantage of that friend,have sex when you feel like it,it could mean you want that guy to fall for you so you become his "friend".It has plenty of meanings.Also,when it comes to "friends with benefits",there is the predator and prey.This is when the prey is not aware.When both parties are aware,then well,its cannibalistic but this is the most common one.Usually,the predator and prey part can be carried out anytime,if the prey is in a relationship or not.
So why do people put up an act and fake a friendship to get "closer" to someone?to get something they cant have?or its just their strategy to get to that person.Whatever it is,it works.Unfortunately,it works.The prey would easily be lured into the predators cave,more like seduced.Its really easy,because it all goes on behind closed doors.Its really unpreditable,no one would ever know if its a real or fake friendship they're having.
I know a couple of people who are weak and with no willpower and gets easily lured but theres some kind of force field in that "cave" so he/she has yet to get in.Im afraid he/she will soon.Its a pity when some of them know whats going on and just give in.Theres a very very thin line,almost invisible line between friends and friends with benefits.Those who know this but dont live by it,like me for example,are always at the losing end.But i do know that people who dont live by it will never live on a lie and are more aware on whats real and not.They have a smaller circle of friends,sometimes its not even enough to create a circle,but its enough.
Why am i saying this?cos im going through a phase.Ive a couple of friends who are preys,its so hard to tell explain to them cos they dont get it at all.I end up as someone who assumes a lot and accuses people for nothing.I dont go all like "THAT FUCKING SLUT IS FUCKING MEAN TO ME BUT IS SO FUCKING NICE TO YOU PEOPLE COS SHE WANTS ME THROWN OUT AND COS SHES FUCKING FLIRTING WITH YOU?ARE YOU FUCKING THICK TO NOT FUCKING GET IT?!?!?!?!".I try to say it in the most nice way and explain it in detail without accusing so that you'd get it,but no,i get the same response anyway.That i accuse and assume a lot.They also tell me that i over react,exaggerate and think too much.Fine,i know i think waaay too much.I think beyond the horizons when something comes up but i end up being right!Theres nothing i can do but get myself hurt in the end.Theres nothing one can do when the prey starts trusting the predator and less of you.The predator is always sneaky and careful so the prey wouldnt suspect a thing.The predator drafts a very smart plan and then executes it.What if you used to be the predator and you knew how a predator thinks and then you convert to a normal person and then you have a friend whos a prey and you try to help that friend but the friend has already fallen into that nasty trap?you know what i do?i just cry cos ive gone all out but once a prey you'd always be a prey.Until you realise it yourself,but if you think really practically,you'd always be the prey.
Maybe i just shouldnt care huh?let them be the prey.Let them tell you to "think practically and logically",more like be more narrow minded.Let them tell you that YOU are narrow minded and should be more open minded when they are the ones with the narrow mind.Let them be cos they dont give a fuck at all.As for me,i should be like how i was years ago.Be freaking outgoing,it would scare you.It'll be so immoral and you cant do anything about it cos it'll be like the pot calling the kettle black.More like the manslut calling the skank a whore.
Friday, June 06, 2008
Happy Birthday Angeline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its my sister's 10th birthday today.I feel like a mommy hugging her and choking her cos i really cant believe shes 10 now.She was so tiny and playful,running around and pronounce words in the most cutest way and now shes 10!!and shes starting to act a lot like me,as in copying.hahaha.Its alright i guess sisters do that but now shes trying to talk like me.I'm really gonna miss her when she leaves for England.Only Tharen knows how sad i am about it.Its not right to separate sisters cos they share the same blood as you and no one else does.Ever since my mom left,ive been a mom to her.It was really stressful but worth it cos she treated me like a mother too and now my mom decides to bring her there and she told me "its time that i should be a mother to Angeline".Story of my life,people leaving.
I agree with Peyton,"People Always Leave".
I had to get out of my diet for today for my sister.So i'll be eating normally just for today.Fried chicken wings in the afternoon and we're ordering pizza and some other stuff for dinner.Gosh i hope i dont gain the weight i lost after such hard work.Last night,i had a sudden craving for Japanese food which i am not fond of.I hate raw food and i especially hate seafood except prawns.I find food that is not lamb,pork,chicken or beef disgusting,you know like octopus and rabbit for example.I dont understand how people can like Japanese food.Haha and yet i craved for it.Well i was craving for yakitori chicken and the egg&mayo sushi which ive not tried before but i like egg&mayo sandwiches so maybe id like the egg&mayo sushi.
I'm gonna bring my sister out a lot to eat before she leaves.I know the place where we live is home to the best chinese food and indian food,SERIOUSLY!Its authentic!cos the owner of the restaurant,China Palace is a malaysian and omg the food there is just like crystal jade,i dare say better!and its in England of all places!!and the restaurant Akbar's serves the BEST Indian food,better than any indian restaurant in Singapore&i love how its so spicy,but of course its freakin expensive,5 Pounds($15) for a plate of briyani,but oh gosh its freakin yummy!If i follow Tharen for Deus Ex Machina's Europe tour next year and if we go to England,i AM SOO GONNA RUSH TO AKBAR'S!Ok anyways back to what i was saying,i'm gonna bring my sister to banana leaf apollo cos she likes it there and she wont get to have Indian food often there.Tharen's coming along too,yay.I'm gonna bring her to crystal jade too,theres not much Tharen can eat there though.Shit ill be missing all these once i turn into a vegetarian!Well i am one now anyway,Kaye calls me a rabbit!
Enough about food,besides all i eat now is a bowl of lettuce and carrots.Yes people for ALL of my meals.Anyways,i was supposed to meet Tharen today to go for Nethra's party but didnt.His gig went well.I'm a proud manager of Stillborn(:and will always be their no.1 diehard fan,ive always been their BIGGEST fan since 2005.From Headshot to Sanskrit to Vital Fury to Menevorium to STILLBORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'm trying to find them more gigs but the gigs i found are freakin close to each other and they'd be really tired to play.Gotta find more.
I'm gonna be fuck busy after late June,which is also after i achieve my desired body size which by the way is freakin horrible now.I'm really excited,tons of the photographers contacted me for TFCDs and i saw their work and its really good so ill be meeting up with them on Saturdays.Ive also got 2 paid shoots on the line.Finally money.I cant wait,ill get to meet new people & get to know other models.Yay ive model assignments at hand.funfunfun.
bye.
I agree with Peyton,"People Always Leave".
I had to get out of my diet for today for my sister.So i'll be eating normally just for today.Fried chicken wings in the afternoon and we're ordering pizza and some other stuff for dinner.Gosh i hope i dont gain the weight i lost after such hard work.Last night,i had a sudden craving for Japanese food which i am not fond of.I hate raw food and i especially hate seafood except prawns.I find food that is not lamb,pork,chicken or beef disgusting,you know like octopus and rabbit for example.I dont understand how people can like Japanese food.Haha and yet i craved for it.Well i was craving for yakitori chicken and the egg&mayo sushi which ive not tried before but i like egg&mayo sandwiches so maybe id like the egg&mayo sushi.
I'm gonna bring my sister out a lot to eat before she leaves.I know the place where we live is home to the best chinese food and indian food,SERIOUSLY!Its authentic!cos the owner of the restaurant,China Palace is a malaysian and omg the food there is just like crystal jade,i dare say better!and its in England of all places!!and the restaurant Akbar's serves the BEST Indian food,better than any indian restaurant in Singapore&i love how its so spicy,but of course its freakin expensive,5 Pounds($15) for a plate of briyani,but oh gosh its freakin yummy!If i follow Tharen for Deus Ex Machina's Europe tour next year and if we go to England,i AM SOO GONNA RUSH TO AKBAR'S!Ok anyways back to what i was saying,i'm gonna bring my sister to banana leaf apollo cos she likes it there and she wont get to have Indian food often there.Tharen's coming along too,yay.I'm gonna bring her to crystal jade too,theres not much Tharen can eat there though.Shit ill be missing all these once i turn into a vegetarian!Well i am one now anyway,Kaye calls me a rabbit!
Enough about food,besides all i eat now is a bowl of lettuce and carrots.Yes people for ALL of my meals.Anyways,i was supposed to meet Tharen today to go for Nethra's party but didnt.His gig went well.I'm a proud manager of Stillborn(:and will always be their no.1 diehard fan,ive always been their BIGGEST fan since 2005.From Headshot to Sanskrit to Vital Fury to Menevorium to STILLBORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'm trying to find them more gigs but the gigs i found are freakin close to each other and they'd be really tired to play.Gotta find more.
I'm gonna be fuck busy after late June,which is also after i achieve my desired body size which by the way is freakin horrible now.I'm really excited,tons of the photographers contacted me for TFCDs and i saw their work and its really good so ill be meeting up with them on Saturdays.Ive also got 2 paid shoots on the line.Finally money.I cant wait,ill get to meet new people & get to know other models.Yay ive model assignments at hand.funfunfun.
bye.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
God save the queen,she aint no human being.
ENGLAND
Heey!So i havent really uploaded all the pictures i took when i was living in England yet cos ive been really busy ever since coming back to Singapore but ive time now so here they are!Sorry if the pictures are itsy bitsy,i forgot to change the camera to large mode!
Lets start with my ever so messy bedroom!
The mini door in this picture is actually a door of another mini room!
This is the staircase to the door of my bedroom!cool eh?Kind of like when you open the door,theres a flight of stairs that leads up to my room.We even filled the walls of the stairs with posters.
Umm,yea thats underwear on the radiator.lol.Oh and see the contrast of the posters?on the left are posters of disney channel stars and on the right ive posters of Amber Pacific and Funeral For A friend.The disney posters obviously belongs to my sister!
Beautiful nature!
The rainbows in England are super clear!
This is Whitby Beach,this is where Dracula was buried!oh and they have the world's best Fish and Chips.This is also where the gothic culture started centuries ago.
I took this when i tried to take a picture of a shooting star but failed.Firstly i used my phone camera that doesnt take nice pictures AND shooting stars dont go all slow like in cartoons or movies.It flashes faster than a blink of the eye.I gotta say,the skies in England are lovely.At night,the whole sky would be dusted with sparkly glittery stars,really breathtaking.Singapore's night sky is totally opposite,theres only a handful of stars and sometimes we might mistake satellites for stars.
Studying in Macdonalds!People were giving weird stares at my sister and me cos we were studying in Macdonalds.No one studies in Public in England and no one would ever think of studying in Macdonalds in England.So yea,my sister and i were still a little thick skinned.Singapore's Macdonalds is so much better cos theres more variety in the menu especially because they have MCWINGS!but the Macs in England doesnt have much,most of the items on the menu are burgers and the closest thing to my dearest mcwings are the chicken strips.Their fries are yummier though.
Took pictures of my sister in Doncaster Town.
In our living room.
In our room after face painting at a summer festival.
Camwhoring in our kitchen!
In our living room.
In bed after waking up
This is Chatsworth.The Chatsworth International School in Singapore,the one in Orchard,is named after this place.Chatsworth is a beautiful giant garden that belongs to a duke&duchess.
The fountain at Chatsworth!
My mom.
Lying on the grass!
Feeding the ducks(or are they geese?)
Geese,ducks..same diff.Okay no they arent.
My sister kept freaking out everytime the boat bumped.
At Wonderland Theme Park!
Heey!So i havent really uploaded all the pictures i took when i was living in England yet cos ive been really busy ever since coming back to Singapore but ive time now so here they are!Sorry if the pictures are itsy bitsy,i forgot to change the camera to large mode!
Lets start with my ever so messy bedroom!
The mini door in this picture is actually a door of another mini room!
This is the staircase to the door of my bedroom!cool eh?Kind of like when you open the door,theres a flight of stairs that leads up to my room.We even filled the walls of the stairs with posters.
Umm,yea thats underwear on the radiator.lol.Oh and see the contrast of the posters?on the left are posters of disney channel stars and on the right ive posters of Amber Pacific and Funeral For A friend.The disney posters obviously belongs to my sister!
Beautiful nature!
The rainbows in England are super clear!
This is Whitby Beach,this is where Dracula was buried!oh and they have the world's best Fish and Chips.This is also where the gothic culture started centuries ago.
I took this when i tried to take a picture of a shooting star but failed.Firstly i used my phone camera that doesnt take nice pictures AND shooting stars dont go all slow like in cartoons or movies.It flashes faster than a blink of the eye.I gotta say,the skies in England are lovely.At night,the whole sky would be dusted with sparkly glittery stars,really breathtaking.Singapore's night sky is totally opposite,theres only a handful of stars and sometimes we might mistake satellites for stars.
Studying in Macdonalds!People were giving weird stares at my sister and me cos we were studying in Macdonalds.No one studies in Public in England and no one would ever think of studying in Macdonalds in England.So yea,my sister and i were still a little thick skinned.Singapore's Macdonalds is so much better cos theres more variety in the menu especially because they have MCWINGS!but the Macs in England doesnt have much,most of the items on the menu are burgers and the closest thing to my dearest mcwings are the chicken strips.Their fries are yummier though.
Took pictures of my sister in Doncaster Town.
In our living room.
In our room after face painting at a summer festival.
Camwhoring in our kitchen!
In our living room.
In bed after waking up
This is Chatsworth.The Chatsworth International School in Singapore,the one in Orchard,is named after this place.Chatsworth is a beautiful giant garden that belongs to a duke&duchess.
The fountain at Chatsworth!
My mom.
Lying on the grass!
Feeding the ducks(or are they geese?)
Geese,ducks..same diff.Okay no they arent.
My sister kept freaking out everytime the boat bumped.
At Wonderland Theme Park!
My sister driving!Oh gosh,she bumped into a lot of things & got really scared so my stepdad had to drive for her all the way.lol.
Stepdad
Mom
She was super scared to get off,but i like this pic!
My mom was super scared when we went on almost everything!especially the slide!my stepdad has to place her on his lap before they went down!Videos!
You can literally here my mom screaming and my sister screeching cos she wanted to get on it.
This slide is super fun!
My 16th birthday!
This was taken at Akbar's,its an indian restaurant and the setting is AMAZING!Its dark lit,velvety and a lot of candles.Freakin romantic,i wanted to take Tharen there when he said he was coming to visit last December.The food there is better than ANY Indian restaurant in Singapore.I expected the food to be less spicier but no it was just as spicy as how an Indian would like it.I'd go there just for the food!Anyways,this picture was taken when the waiters gathered around me to sing me a birthday song when they served me the ice cream with sparklers,embarassing much?Apparently you can just order it even if its not your birthday and they'd still gullibly sing to you.
At home during the morning of my birthday.Dont be deceived by the bright sunshine.It was 6am!Nights are shorts during summer.It'll be bright by 3.30am and the sun will set at 10pm!Haha i was eyeing the chocolate champagne bottle.
& I CAMWHORED OF COURSE!
So thats just a glimpse of my life in England,pretty much in a nutshell!(:
I've more pictures&videos but i gotta go look for them so i dont think i'll be uploading them.
k ciao<3
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Enough
You think you're so great and all.You think im stupid and lousy,those were your last words.I've had more than enough of going through shit every single day,i'm always getting tortured by you everyday and i know you do it purposely.You find pleasure in me suffering in pain.If i do get someone,i hope that person has a heart.
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